Tuesday, April 17, 2012

would you be able to teach in a class if you were posted back here?

lady in the specs says what??
NO.
Cause i was doing the limbo rock in the classroom for the past 7 weeks and 80% of my students didn't get at least an A2 in their class test

Need.... to... play... rugby...
to keep my sanity.

Tell me why i skipped multiple trainings just to mark these workbooks or plan some lesson?
Tell me why I always try my best to prepared for lesson with 7 page lesson plans but no one seems to give a hoot about the effort that I put in?
Tell me why I am feeling like this even before teaching for real?
Tell me why its not the students that are sucking the soul and life out of me?

are you for real?
Are you all for real?
Just shoot me, stab me and hang me all together!
so i don't have to put up with such atrocity
Trying to smile and pretend everything is okay is so tiring.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Just smile and pretend everything is fine. Just smile. Okay, just pretend.

As a member of academia and science, I truly believe in Newton's law of motion and its application in many parts of life
"For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction"

I believe that you will reap however much you sow and more effort would undoubtedly result in more end- product.
A bad intention will result in a horrible end and if you do good, you would be rewarded with many
This simple scientific equation leads my life for the past 2 decades and it has generally held true until recently.

When you were a student, you hear about adults telling you how it is better to remain as a student as you have no worries and responsibilities mounted on your shoulders.
And i am sure most of our response to that i that "i will prove you wrong! I hate studying and i would rather work and earn my own keep and be a much happier person!"
Well, I am here today to basically take those words back and take a bite of the humble pie.

Beyond the money that you get for your hard work, you have to deal with endless people getting you at your back for things that you may have done or not.
And suddenly like a kid who was told that Santa isn't real, my Newton's Law didnt work for the first time.
Effort isn't recognized anymore and on the contrary you see lesser effort being commended and you wonder what is going on.

p.s:
After torturing a bunny, do you think its the best idea to take the bunny back into your home and rear in with care and concern and all the good that you promise?
I personally think the bunny is better off with a new owner.

Saturday, April 07, 2012

Diamonds in the rough

if i cross my fingers and prayed really hard.
maybe?