i just wanna say i don't every want this to end. never. however all good things come to an end one day and this is no exception.

having to stand down from canoeing.. the feeling ain't that all pretty. it's like breaking up with my significant half.

when u realli like something. u sacrifice. without complaints.
yet then again those are terms in which others use.
to u. all u want to do is to give. the more the merrier.
all u want is this to last forever.

just yesterday i was alone at home. taking a moment to finally absorb in the past ongoings.. something in which i could nv have the time to do during those precious moments. basically becos it was happening all too quickly. i was depressed. i still am. wad's life gonna be without canoeing? all those Time that i've invested....i wanna give more.... feels like it's not enff. yet there isn't anything i can do now can i?

i don't want to see the light. i don't want this to be a memory. i don't ever want this to end.

i've moved on many times. each time gaining the admiration from pple tt find it hard to do so. yet now, i refuse to choose the path of letting go. cos it only means letting it become another chapter of my life.. classifying it is not going to make me a happier person this time round... letting go means admitting defeat to time. why. why is it that time is always a factor? why?

MJ canoeing means everything. we are strong as one. when im feeling low, the passion emitting from every single one of them rises my spirit almost naturally. my mind, body, soul revolves around it.
the mornings.93.the shed.the lifevests.the boats.tadpole.214B2.the warm-ups.the 'dozens'the 1k mark.the 500 markthe 250 markthe 200 markthe 125 markthe platforms.the greenery. the lanes.the water. the draggyness. the wash ups. the barefootness. 156. bishan. the talks. the laughters. the smiles. the bonds formed. the sunburns. ahh. there's so much to it.. u'll have to go thro it personally to understand wad i mean...

for now let me drown in my own depression for it means nv to have to let go...





michelle