a surprise came in the mail today was home after a tiring day of training when i saw a small little envelope sitting on my desk
inside, a Valentine's Day card from the lovely miss shitty nicely timed caused i received it on my dateless valetine's day. i'm not complaining man. Being isnt all bad love it to bits love you to bits okay. im really tired gonna sleep this uneventful Valetine's day away while everyone in my family is off pak toh-ing as usual booo
thanks shitty! may your ah pui return in one piece instead of becoming a piece of bak kwa hahahah
caught a ride from izree all the way back to tampinese cause aloy and gang were having some soccer match at their former JC, tpjc.
usually, i would reach the east around 8pm if i was travelling via train and bus.
but today i was back in tampinese even before 6pm!
i headed to tampines mall to meet up with mum for dinner.
hadnt dined with her the whole week
poor lwoman, she told me she has been eating alone the whole of this week too cause all her children and spouse are to busy with their work to dine with her
while waiting for her, i popped by best denki to get
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the philips gogear luxe mp3 player in red
i've been wanting to get on mp3 after i lost the one nicole gave me for birthday last year
but i havent seen anything that i really fancy
until this ofcourse.
this player is neat beacause its really small, and im no fan of huge ipods with so many applications but no stereo function which is ridiculous.
other then being so god damn pretty and in my favourite colour,
it has this blue tooth linking function where i can link my phone calls to this device
so i can actually chat with my mp3 instead of my phone. cool ya??
love it to bits.
oh. and the best thing came out on newstands today.
been sick for almost a week now. and im glad to say that it came in the whole package. Fever topped with greenish phlegm, a runny nose and sore throat. the whole motley crew came to bai nian hahah. alright. the flu took away my sense of humour too well, i'm glad that's over with. Being sick can be really a bitch Especially when you have a test to take on that very day. Everyone who saw me said i looked like a zombie.
anyway, moving on to happier stuff actually. there isnt any haha im just damn bored and a little distracted from writing my report now.
mum says she's bringing us to Bangkok during recess. I dunno how true it is Cause like malaysia, she was never fond of the land of a thousand smiles especially now, in the midst of it political choas. Dear thais, pls try not to overthrow your government or demonstrate at the international airport anytime soon please. Let my virgin trip to Bangkok come true. Dad mentioned over dinner last night, he wants to go back to South Africa soon. wow. i dun mind
note to self: Go have dinner at Canteen A every monday. Cause you'll never know who you might "accidentally bump" into. ice cold fridge.
nothing much just two favourite songs of this moment
Jack and Rai- Fa la la Song Lady Gaga- Just dance
No twisted lovers No forever and evers I’m a sucker for simplicity No complications No angry telephone conversations Seems like yesterday when I learned to be free
If you wanna fa la la la la with me Then let’s go let’s go Don’t be another one just like the other one If you wanna fa la la la la la with me Then go oh no I ain’t gonna wait Cos I’m doing it fine on my own
So watcha waitin' for Just gimme your hand and we’ll explore The many little kinds of things that Lovers don’t do or hardly anymore Your clock is ticking and so is mine Why put everything on the line Good ol' Daddy Time says We’ll learn to be free I wanna be free If you wanna fa la la la la with me Then let’s go let’s go Don’t be another one just like the other one If you wanna fa la la la la la with me Then go oh no I ain’t gonna wait Cos I’m doing it fine On my own
Yessirree I’m runnin on a new ground Comin' from a newfound Free is what I’m looking into calling me. You takin' your time to think it through I’m moving ahead with or without you
A Red One Konvict Gaga I've had a little bit too much All of the people start to rush. Start to rush by A dizzy twister dance Can't find my drink or man. Where are my keys, I lost my phone. What's go-ing on on the floor? I love this record baby, but I can't see straight anymore. Keep it cool what's the name of this club? I can't remember but it's alright, alright.
[Chorus:] Just dance. gonna be okay. Da-da-doo-doot-n Just dance. Spin that record babe. Da-da-doo-doot-n Just dance. Gonna be okay. Duh-duh-duh Dance. Dance. Dance. just j-j-just dance.
Wish I could shut my playboy mouth. How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside out right. Control your poison babe Roses have thorns they say. [ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/BKCo ] And we're all gettin' hosed tonight. What's go-ing on on the floor? I love this record baby, but I can't see straight anymore. Keep it cool what's the name of this club? I can't remember but it's alright, alright.
[Chorus]
When I come through on the dance floor checkin out that catalogue. Can't believe my eyes so many women without a flaw. And I ain't gonn' give it up, steady tryna pick it up like a call I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex until the til done until tomorr' yeah. Shawty I can see that you got so much energy The way you twirling up them hips round and round There's no reason, I know why you can't leave here with me In the meantime stand, let me watch you break it down.
[Chorus]
Half pychotic, sick hypnotic Got my blueprint it's symphonic Half psychotic, sick hypnotic Got my blueprint electronic Half pychotic, sick hypnotic Got my blueprint it's symphonic Half psychotic, sick hypnotic Got my blueprint electronic
Go. Use your muscle ca-rve it out work it hustle I got it, just stay close enough to get it Go slow. Drive it, clean it lysol bleed it Spend the last dough, in your pocko!
I teared a little seeing Roger Federer cry on the podium in Rod Laver Arena
Not because the man is cute and successful and i feel sad for him
Imagine being at the top for so long and suddenly this Spanish Muchacho comes along and is beating you in all the matches and you just can figure out why.
I guess it you can only feel the same pain only if you've been at the top
Ive been glued to my TV since 5pm all the way till almost 10pm catching the finals of the Australian Open, screaming my lungs out
to be honest, I was really hopeful and somehow sure that Federer was gonna win this one and bring it back home, but he gave a good fight i must say.
Im just upset that a legend and true champion is tested like that
The australian open is definitely a very special event for Federer as this was where he got his No. 1 title while playing in 04 i think.
Losing at the same place must have sucked big time.
I never thought i'd say this but Roger looks really cute crying.
Its somehow different from his nonchalant, calm face he wears on court during his match.
Not that i wanna see him cry anymore
The next one will be a Paris, Roland Garros which is Nadal's niche terrain, the clay courts
Roger, you go to Paris and steal that damn cup away from that man i tell you.
Make Nadal cry instead
Oh gawd, i look forward to the day he gets back his no. 1 and wins another Grandslam to even Pete Sampras' record.
Good luck baby
Till then, i'll always be screming infront of the TV for you
p.s: im having serious post australian opens withdrawal syndrome now. I'm feeling so empty with nothing to look forward to anymore.
but the whole "niu" year thing is so over-used and getting a little annoying
television, newpapers and radio broadcast are centralising their CNY campaign around the same word pun
NIU=New
whatever happened to creativity?
enough bitching for today
updates on the aussie open
Jelena the underserving no. 1 is out as expected and booted out by a young teenager Marion Bartoli.
Phew for Federer as he moves up the board into the next round
Had a close one today where he was down right from the start
Look at the intensity on his face
When he is so psyched up and excited about scoring a point, you know something is definitely wrong.
Beacause it isnt Federer to cheer and get all hyped up about one good ball
he's too cool for that
I was watching Evan Almighty on HBO last night
And interestingly, there was this part that really tugged on my heartstrings and got me thinking for a moment
God played by Morgan Freeman talked about opportunities in a prayer
People pray to be given strength, courage, patience, to be closer as a family
But have you wondered how does God give people strength or courage?
Does he plant them into your cells magically? And viola, you have courage.
Nah uh.
He presents in the form of opportunities.
Take for example, if you want courage, God offers you opportunities to show your courage, strength or whatever.
Really makes sense, especially to a non beliver in higher powers like me.
I really believe in opportunities and how they can mould you depending on how you react and handle the situation and i hope when i am given one, i will step up to the plate and do what i am supposed to do.
Well, the "Niu" year is gonna come in another two hours time
and ive been eating non stop since i got home from hall on friday
ive been really deprived of food in hall cause the nearest canteen has disgusting unplatetable food and i really am too lazy to walk to get food anyway.
so i always end up eating cereal, cookies or whatever i brought from home the previous week.
So whenever friday dawns, i have no quams about going hungry cause my mum has a knack for stocking up food at home and buying yummy snacks
This year, she bought heart shaped bak kwas instead of the normal coin shaped ones that my sister likes
Personally, i prefer the large square ones cause its a bigge serving and so you get more kick out of eating that huge one instead of the cute small and round ones
I guess my sister likes that one more because it's more convenient to eat
But anyway, the hear shaped bak kwas are so cute.
Never mind about my huge appetite and not getting any kick out of just eating one of those,
the cuteness of it alone is just enought to get me picking up another one and another one and another one.
i comfort myself by saying that all theses calories will be lost when i get back to the damn hall on wednesday
self denial.
haha
enjoy youself peeps
p.s: Dear chelsea, i know you are like mugging away right now, but i hope the pictures of my cute bak kwa can cheer you up. Dont be sad. But then again, you cant eat it. But you are in canada surrounded by so many cute ang mors. I'd take that over food anyday. So i guess, your "niu" year is more happening. So stop complaining. Tsk.
bloody cheerleaders have been practicing their routine late into the wee hours since two days ago i would be woken up at 2am in the morning to the sound of "hall 8! come on hall 8 lets go!" over and over again "one more time! one last time!" and they do it like a million times only that line i remeber waking up in the middle of my slumber and the first thing i said was a series of words that should not be mentioned even when im groggy i still hate the sound "hall 8 come on hall 8 lets go HOME! and leave Jacqueline alone!" see it rhymes and its more than the one line they have there you go you're welcome:)
i have to say that you have given me a very fulfilling year with many challanges to overcome, happy moments and not so great ones either.
For the wonderful occassions just to name a few like:
the countless outings and baking sessions with my girls,
swimming, gyming, shopping or just plain chilling and gossiping with wee wee,
the many celebrations with besties(usually at nic's house),
festive seasons with my family,
competitions with the meridian warriors
and goofing around with my PE mates at PE college
i was so glad to have lived that moment and would never trade it for anything else
and how about the not so good moments like:
the A level results
the period awaiting the NIE intake news
WORKING AT XM
mugging for exams
the countless leg injuries i had
backing out of competitions, trials
BLOGGING SAGA
i give thanks to these moments as well cause it made me a stronger and better person who is never suere of what she wants and what she ought to do better.
i know i was not the best that i can or should be this year and hence i will take forth the lessons learnt this year and work on it in 09 and who know what to expect in the coming year.
but one thing is for sure, i know it wouldn't be a bed of roses nor do i hope for it to be a treacherous sea of fire. Hopefully i will learn just as much as i can from 09 just as i have from you.
hopefully bonds forged with whoever and whenever will no longer be broken cause as nonchalant as i may appear, i treasure friendships like gold.
but for the temporaries like wee wee and chelby, i will miss you dearly in 09 cause you won't be here with me like you have in 08.
i dunno why but 09 seems very promising but it can only be the best i make of myself
so we shall wait and see how i fair
i promise i shall really start t******* seriouslly when i get back
with whom i dunno, but i definitely will
so bye 08 and i'll say helloooo 09 in macau!!
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went back to hall yesterday to clean up since i would only be back one day before school starts and i wouldn't wanna clean then
the stupid hall was damn freaking dirty
this is my fan with many tiny rectangular vents where the wind comes out from obviouslyi took a Q tip and stick it inside one of the vents to clean it and out comes
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this piece of dust bunnie
and not to mention, my wardrobe reeks of death or something, i have no idea why
when i pulled out one of my black top from inside, i was damn shocked to find that it has mould growing all over it.
but im so glad i went back to clear it
did some laundry as well.
yan yan we need to come up with some housekeeping plan when i get back.
i already have a rough idea of how it is going to work already
if im going to be a better person in 09 i might as well start with personal hygiene.
okay. i have to stress im really bored at home so i googled phoaphat's full name the cute and pro thai canoeist i saw for 3 days at SEACC?? dont u jugde me here. im sure all of you googled your name or someone elses in some point of time
turns out he's doing sports science in an educational college in Chinag mai as well!! like how coincidental?? and he's like quite a big shot in the thailand canoeing scene according to those articles he has articles featuring him okay articles. not article. articles OMG OMG OMG he's like some model also ive got pictures!!! thankyou google Merry chirstmas everyone and this time i mean it dont bother about the previous post
merry christmas everyone seems like everyone has plans for the evening except for me im sitting here in an empty house right in front of my vaio everyone in the family has gone "pat tor-ing" even my parents
in any case Merry Christmas everyone and happy new year cause i'll be laughing at all of you on new year's day in Hong Kong thinking: "who ask you never ask me out on christmas eve?"
oh, im just sore and whiny whatever peace out.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
back! africa was amazing. one of the best holidays ever sure im going back for more many photos but i dunno if i'll have the time or patience to upload it for now, its back to training and planning for Macua/Hong Kong/China time to meet up people
i missed one whole week of little nonya sad sad sad what happended already?? anyone? peishit you have to update me im all "er duo" for you
first training with Mr Sng today feels really good omg he pointed out so many mistakes that i was making my strokes are completely messed up right now have some major tweaking and changes to be made to my strokes for the next few trainings so i'll mainly be focusing on stroking and technique but already, im feeling much stronger and faster thanks alot coach feels so good to be home finally.
major packing to do right now then its zoom zoom to bedok reservoir in the morning and zoom zoom to airport in the evening i reckon i'll be sleeping through my 11 hour flight great cause i hate plane rides big time just knock me out man ciao
i am writing an open letter to you hopin that you will read my blog for one last time before you leave for Canada. This blog was started partly because of you and the rest of the girls because you girls kept egging me to start one and here i am 3 years on.
Please please do not forget us 3 years down the road when you're all settled in Canada because you know we'll be here missing you
the "four of us" is now down to three.
perhaps we can now call ourselves the 3 musketeers, the 3 amigoes or even the 3 blind mices.
but you know it wouldn't be the same anymore right?
i would alwasy remembr how us two especially used to laugh our lungs about the silliest things like your stupid chicken wing joint, your imitation of a thai , your stupid hokkien sentences, your father, you dog, muscle, Mr Tan and so much more
and how can we forget.
you were my study buddy all the way man
perhaps why we got sucky results
but... thats not the point
Hope you will really enjoy yourself in Canada and make many awesome and great friends like us. But please do keep in touch with us every now and then. I reckon it will be very difficult and that i will not be as familiar and comfortable with you some time later. But this is what distance does to relationships. If i do not say hi, say hi to me first. Okay?
post South East Asia Canoe Championships. realy glad i was there to witness the whole event racing at the international level is certaintly a whole new league even for experienced paddlers like me it was definitely an eye opener now that it is finally over, i am sitting at home infront of my laptop feeling a little depressed. i am seriouslly sighing and feeling a little shitty right now i have to say. oh man, post SEACC withdrawal sydromes.
these three days, i have witnessed some of the best and worst races i have seen seeing random people donning the national colours makes me all tingly inside and jealous to a certain level was chatting with miss lim and it just suddenly hit me after she told me this particular line "you've been walking up and down right outside there door for years. why don't you just step in?" i replied, "i don't think im good enough for them yet" and she went on to say "do you want to bear everyone in the team before you finally agree to go for trials again?" this hit homerun for me and realy got me thinking and thinking
but seriouslly that was what i really wanted to do for the longest period of time after my first trials where i did race miss lim herself and SEACC trials i was really impressed with her and saw her as the benchmark of how i am supposed to be if i even want to make it in there but i have to say seeing the races and the level of competition these past 3 days, i really should have been there racing my lungs out. it always ends with the "i should have been there" isn't it?
miss lim said "your ego is really preventing you from doing alot of things" and she bingo-ed once again next sem is gonna be a canoe and study sem for me i'll be jacq the robot for one sem if i can really take it i shall try though cause no more shoulda woulda and coulda for me totallu sick of it but i reckon i'll be dead beat which i am so not excited about at the same time
now its finally off my chest im feeling much better but still a little depressed because i can't get to see team thailand anymore the guys in team thailand are like SUPER CUTE especially this very fast canoeist called phoaphat you say his name as "pau pat" aww man i tell you i was swooning all the time he was the best canoeist around winning the gold in most of his events even though they got lousier boats than competitors like Vietnam and Singapore i wished i have a picture right now but no. i shall check the SCF website constantly and post it up immediately when i get it i was helping team thailand open their shed for the past 3 days lucky me:) the last NCC when team thailand came down, i don't remeber seeing cute guys at all man it was all like normal thai man who were burnt and middle age looking what happened? phaophat is so good looking and also a damn good canoeist. double threat. but whatever it is, phaophat is gone boo boo boo boo booooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i think i need a few days to get over my imaginary boyfriend
2 days to africa i am starting to hear some awimoweh awimoweh awimoweh awimoweh awimoweh awimoweh awimoweh but......... trainings with Mr Sng at bedok reservoir till the very day i fly cause its a night flight cant wait to canoe like the wind again or at least feel like it? wheee booo wheee boo whee boo im in a terribal emotional state right now bye
next tuesday midnight which is technically wednesday will be off to south africa yay
met up with nicole and gang last week for dinner and a random chat of travelling over a cup of drink actually turned out to a full scale holiday plan tickets and hotel were quickly booked after that and we're set to fly on the 31st and return on the dawn of 4th Jan 09 this means i'll be counting down to the new year in another country oh.. and destination is Macau this is obviously a shopping trip beacause young ppl have no business to be in Macau we do not have loads of money to burn in the casino anyway Macua just happens to be strategically located in between China and Hong Kong so much of shoppa, so little timma yay yay yay yay yay yay yay i can't wait
other stuff are bugging me right now all i can say is i'm just plain lazy
dear god, please give me strength espescially strength in the mind to help me follow through what i promised to do if not i'll be such a loser
i had fun baking with chelby and girls today she too set to fly off on monday i;ll miss you like siao training tomorrow give me strength! to wake up
of all places, Marcus just happens to be in Mumbai for the week messaged him yesterday glad he replied saying "he's still alive for now" hurry come back and don't die there
...... just another train!! nah.. yes. its finally over. first i have to say, whoever said that uni was slack and put that thought in my head in the first place ought to bang the wall. it was like A levels all over again. shorter, but just as intense. aww man. 1 sem down and 7 more to go baby.
i had a total of 3 hours of sleep throughout these past 2 days. no kidding i was so scared that i was gonna fall asleep during the paper today and the sweet i bought yesterday was shared and gone the day itself. but........ thanks to Mr SNG CHENG WEI aka wooden spoon he choose to sacrificed one of his beloved sweet that was given to him by a special someone just to make sure i wouldn't sleep during paper. thanks dude.
anyway, i dunno if i was hallucinating cause i had only 3 hours of sleep in 48 hrs, but i swore i saw this person in blue trying to enter my room when i was about to reach my hall room. thinking it was yan yan who was back from home, i picked up my pace so i wouldn't have to take out my keys to open the door. but.................... no one weird huh?
million yays as it's countdown to endless tv watching and sleeping for me. one more paper tmr and im off to meet chelsea ng for some retail therapy. Growth and motor is way easier to assimilate than intro to PE any day i hope tonight will be a damn productive one as its the final lap to television and aircon paradise for me. reagatta on saturday and sunday should be awesome fun too. i need the sun and workout after almost a month of slacking off and after i have rested enought. its back to cano**** training again trying to work out a schedule already. damai and mj should keep me busy enough. oops. forgot im not supposed to blog about this sensitive issue. shame on you jacq. you did it on purpose right? tsk im such an ass sometimes
okay hitting the books now again. yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay
did i mention my mum is very fickle minded just like me? plans have been changed again. but this time flight has been confirmed, so no changing or backing out again
im going to............... .. .. .. .. .. .. ..
AFRICA!!!!!!!!!! im so excited i tell you. Africa is one of the place on my place to visit before i die list with together with places like Egypt. can't wait and the best part is i come back before christmas unlike the LA trip so count me into your christmas plans ppl!!
i'm praying obama gets it! if not........ my trip to the USA at the end of the year will be toast. i somehow can imagine some chaos or disaster happening if macain won like major protesting session and the stocks exchange collapsing or smt. now.... we wouldn't want that to ruin our shopping trip do we now?
oh yes, plans have been change, mum changed germany to USA. sounds so much more fun actually. Europe is so laid back and unexciting and thinking of spending in euros makes me feel so broke already. Lets hope the second time to the sates will be a more enjoyable one mum is still deciding btw NYC and LA we'll see snow in New york but its kinda only shopping and sight seeing while in LA, no snow, but we'll get to go to the usual disney world and even stop by at vegas for 2 nights. how????
OBAMA!!!! actually, i'm just a fake. know very little about whats gg on in the USA. the only thing i did was to watch the vice presidential candidates debate just thought it would be cool to join in the fun, don't you think so. i bet half the ppl commenting know nuts too. since they dont live in the USA. don't kay kay act intellectual la
oh help. any limewir** users? star it beacuse i dunno if its legal haha
anyway, i was trying to get some songs and i realise every song i search for, there will be this same title. for example if i was searching for man who can't be moved, there will be a man who can be moved sexy girl has a shaking organsm during sex or when i search i'll be loving you long time then it will appear i'll be loving you long time girl has a shaking organsm during sex
damn it. i accidentally clicked on it when i was getting man who cant be moved cause the title is so long and i didnt see the whole title and i cant get it out now. theres no image or even song when i click it just a title but it irritates me to see that title in my playlist help
love, jacq the sexy girl has a ...............................................................
the wonders of the internet i thought i was low profile.
anyway, yay! everything's settled for the regatta race on the 22nd and 23rd thanks Miss Lim for all the hard work and coordination im expecting a lot of fun as ex meridian canoeist take it to the waters again i am not expecting much out of this competiton except for a whole lot of fun. we'll prolly get booted out cause everyone is so out of shape but the main thing is for team bonding and get together i'll be rowing for MOE on that day too. this ought to be fun, my first serious dragon boat competiton and i'm not really into the whole dragon boating culture in the first place.
its just amazing how we can go out of touch for so long, and yet when its down to crunch time, the right people are always there to back you up. 42 people signed up for a 20 men event. this is team spirit for everyone.
okay, 2 weeks to study and train for SEACC trial and regatta i'll prolly get trashed by all the nat team people for the trials but its worth a shot. lets see how i work under pressure. monday starts my training hopefully intensive
p.s: i keep hearing "trahed trashed trashed" at the back of my mind. this is bad. go away!
the heart wrenching stort of the two star crossed lovers Romoe and Juliet This time it ended well and it comes with a song! i've listened to this song like a hundred times already and i'm still replaying someone help me
the one problem i have is that romeo is a little ugly in the video. but the lyrics is maple syrup sweet
We were both young when I first saw you I closed my eyes and the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" And I was crying on the staircase Begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
So, I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while
Oh oh Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" But you were my everything to me I was begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me They try to tell me how I feel This love is difficult, but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town And I said
Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you, but you never come I s this in my headI don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know I talked to your dad Go pick out a white dress It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
Monday, October 27, 2008
james morrison is so hot with his scratchy and slightly hoarse voice serenade me musically inclined guys makes me melt. but not the onn kit chior "summer boulevarddddddddd!!" kind my hair is standing already
okay. i'll get james to sing for you instead my boyfriend with the curly hair:)
the ntu canoeing team had a friendly competition with SP canoeing team yesterday and boy was it an eye opener. cause we got thrashed big time, by young poly kids.
well first of all i have to say that i am well aware that my land and water fitness has dropped exponentially needless to say how i am always missing trianing for both legitimate and non legitimate reasons. (i know they dont belive i am sick every other week too) Plus the fact that trainings has been quite unchallanging for me, starting with the fact that 1)i am lifting not even half the weights that i used to lift, 2)my running speedis that of a geisha's speed 3)my water speed i know can be improved ALOT more 4)i am allowing myself to skip training for the slightest dryness of my throat or a premonition of a fever which is never accurate henc i am having a very difficult time convincing myself to go for trainings, both land and water training which is weird beacause i used to live for the water, my boat and paddle. and now. they are just nothing but a mere tool for me to float and move on the water.
i am exteremely appalled by my change in attitude towards the sport i love so dearly and i up till yesterday i still feel nothing was wrong. the thing is i have been thinking about this issue at times, like when im stonning or taking a break while studying or when the boring lecturer is talking about some flatworm that i am totally disgusted by. however i realised i have never proceeded from that point, taken any action what-so-ever to solve this whole problem
i used to feel very good about myself as an athlethe i mean. i used to run quite fast, top 5 in my jc at least for 2.4 i used to be the best, most competitive canoeist around but that is all so not true now. This whole self confidence thing especially in something you specialise in is so important to me as a PE teacher because i have to be really good, in fact, the best at all these to be able to teach my students with confidence and pride. i dont want to be clocking 12 mins for my 2.4 and expect them to do a 10?
and so ive been thinking alot and i've came to some conclusions and somehow i will try to rectify it hopefully regarding my fitness, its all about training. i remember telling myself that canoeist are so versatile cause we can run damn fast, we are strong, and we can paddle even faster. this wholesome training is missing in my life right now and i have to find someway to fix it.
well, i think its not all about me too. seeing everyone on my team including myself get defeated wasn't easy to swallow. i was very upset that we had to go through all that and still be positive about the whole situation. how can we? we're from the university and we just lost to poly students. the team is definitely not getting enough training or training wrongly. i used t have 2 land and 1 water training to. But back then i felt so much stronger i can tell that the team is very motivate to train but sometimes training smart is more important.
The juniors in my opinion should be taught as a whole the correct stroking techiniques and body motions to maximise their training later on. there is no point making them go out and row 14km with lousy incorrect strokes and calling it a day. and further more, right now, i don't even think they know what a proper stroke is and what major muscles should be involved in the stroke. how can one build a tall tower when the foundation are all wobbly and made of paper instead of rods and cement? Seniors are training very hard i can tell but maybe they too started with poor fiundations too, which is why the improvement curve is go gentle.
well. too many probabilities are going on in my mind now and i dont think i can continue listing all the stuff down. i shall do some deep thought on my own first and continue with this reality check. After exams, i am so gonna train so hard
p.s: happy deepavali to all. pps: i STILL dont understand why there must be a seperate girls and guys team and even jerseys. havent anyone heard of the 1 versus 10 chopstick breaking story??
i miss training hard tgt as "A" team and playing even harder after that. boo:( i think i have a problem with authority, everything has to be done my way or the high way. but i my way makes sense, den why not right??
i love you guys, but not the system. but i know its improving. lets all move ahead one step at a time. i am really inspired by this video i saw some time ago from Miss Lim i hope you all can get some inspiration from it too i'll see you guys after the exams and hopefully we CAN work things out
my body clock is so screwed up. have been up for almost 48 whole hrs from wednesday to friday in name of two projects that were due on that very day. i never knew i was capable of staying awake for such a long period of time. but the problem now is my body clock is kinda screwed up and i have gotten in alot of trouble since. Friday evening was Barker's run. After bio practical, i went back to hall to change into my running gear and running shoes. Since it was only 6, and i had to reach sch at 630, i sat on the bed already with my shoes on and everything, ready to go and all. However, when i woke up, it was already 730 and i had like 100 missed calls from my pe classmates, who i guess were wondering where the heck i was. this is so bad. i didnt even hear the numerous calls they gave me in my sleep. i was probabaly knocked out or something. Anyway, my class got overall champion for the run, so they probably would forgive me i hope.
Was supposed to have training on saturday morning, but as usual, i didnt hear the alarm and woke up after a phone call from my teamate. I hope this late coming thing would all end soon. maybe after today or something. I'm supposed to wake up at 6am to reach macrichie at 745 today. no sleep for me again i guess.
that was what dr teo said to me when i appeared at the anatomy room at 1045am when lesson was supposed to be at 930am outrageously late is all i have to say i told her i simply didnt hear my alarm ring and was really apologetic and surprisingly she accepted it yay her! dr teo is way cool. which was why i was feeling so guilty because i was actually looking forward to attending growth and motor class. Dr teo is so interactive and fun cause she includes everyone in her teaching and uses idiot proof analogies and examples instead of only reading from the slides and only engaging with the usual few students in class. (i know who)
solli solli. i shant be late for class again. (hope)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i do not wish to be part of this affair yet i always seem to be i see things i wish to change yet i can't do anything about it its all a game the survival of the fittest, the flirtiest, the outspoken i don't wanna be part of it yet, im always there i think way too much i guess but i always wonder don't the others see it too? this popularity game its so tiring its so shallow the guys chase, the girls sways they change their mind and it starts again its always a cycle i see it. don't all of you? i guess we all do but like all of you only here i speak of it i guess deep down inside i would go but looking at those detached, i see a lonely soul which im not prepared to go so for now i carry on this stupid ridiculous nonsensical show
interclass floorball has come to a closure last night this was by far the best interclass game we have had since the term started. and also the best results too we came in second but only because the diploma team has the South East Asia floorball mvp on their side. like kumar said: "the final game was more like degree year 1 versus hafiz"
other than a sense of statisfaction and a pat on the back for a job well done for most of us, we all have to agree that shaun was the man of the night
because he went home with
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a chipped tooth!
this is competitiveness for all of you man.
he took a whack from a floorball stick with his teeth
never had house loyalty or what so ever. right back when i was in primary school, house system to me was just a convenient way the school devides the school population into to promote more interactio between different levels and class-but always seems to fail.
in Gongshang primary school, i was in purple hse in Damai secondary, i was from achievers and finally in Meridian i was from the Miranda house.
No doubt i have tried to participate in house activities like the annual track meet and house get togethers or whatever. The house i was in never really mattered to me. probably the only thing i was concerned with was the design of the house shirt. If the house has a shitty shirt, i would probably be quite bummed for like 15 mins and thats the end of it,
HOWEVER.... i chanced upon this recent video on the Meridian Open house, house dance which i have to say MIRANDA ROCKED THE SOCKS OFF ALL HOUSES!! the choreography, the energy was off the hook i can imagine Miss Lim's proud face right now i am too IM FROM MIRANDA!!! the house enthu girl has finally come out of me but a year too late i suppose. why dont they have this kinda stuff while i was in there man?
anyway, check out the video miranda rocks. atlas, triton, callisto and phobos sucks(i suppose thats what a pro miranda is supposed to say right?) anyway, i meant the house and not the name atlas and triton because its still gonna be my future sons' name. haha i better get back to my essay miranda rocks!!!(sticks out tongue and does the funny rockers hand sign)
Thanks for all the advices and help you have given me
and i always love it when you are clearing out your closet cause i'll get all your clothes
love you:)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
the previous post was typed in a fit of anger im generally nice and hence won't hold any sort of grudge against anyone. but i really meant it when i was typing the post not anymore. Training tmr morning lets wait and see
here i am sitting in my room on a saturday morning AGAIN, when i am supposed to be training
dont get me wrong.
I didnt wake up late, nor did i intentionally skipped training
IN FACT, i did go for training.
only to get sent home halfway through the journey AGAIN
i do not mean to complain or bear any grudges or anything but
FUCK YOU!!!
I am done with always waking up early to get ready for training only to get sent home halfway through my journey because it is rainning or theres lightning.
and to be reasonable, you cannot just cannot training an hr or less before it starts because not everyone in the team lives just a stone throw from the reservoir
I take a freaking an hr and a half to get there for god's sake
I'm srry but you all are a piece of crap
The system, programmes and captains are all dysfunct.
The raft between the girl's and guy's team is an obvious enough sign that something is seriously wrong.
I understand if you think that girls aren't able to catch up with the guy's speed and vigour in training. But even warm ups and cool down also has to be done sperately??
Where i come from i believe that a team guys or girls are ultimately as one.
i think im better off trying out canoe polo or dragon boating
but nooooooo
you all told me not to join.
and i listened cause i was so full of hope.
Now i cant change cca anymore, cause they probably formed the teams already.
ASS
Today was another day of disappointment as training is cancelled again due to the rain which stopped an hour before training even started(WTFFFFFFFFF)
training which was supposed to start at 9 got postponed to 10am by a msg sent at about 805?
so what were we supposed to do in the meantime?
Had breakfast with cheng wei while we waited only to get another msg at 915 while waiting for the bus to cancel the training all in all.
and to add on, the excuse to cancel training was damn lame
lightning.
the freaking sky is so bright and i dont see any lightning at all.
and its not the first time
I dont believe that the weather is the decider of out training schedule.
The rain will eventually stop and the lightning will stop striking (people like you)
so why cancel training?
AND ITS NOT THE FIRST TIME
argh!!!
im so pissed of right now.
you know why?
Its 1021 now.
and i just got a call from the girl's team captain asking me why i didnt turn up training today
cause the guy captain told me no training
and why dont you know?
cause they dun tell you nothing
and why?
cause the guys team and girls team are 2 freaking sepreate team and they dont tell each other anything
Although i may not be at home watching you on cable, my spirit is with you!
WHOOP nadal's spanish ass.
Today marks the end of a hectic week.
Went for my first marathon ever last sunday.
Yes, the coveted Nike Plus Human 10k Race. All i can say i ran as fast as my legs could take me so no regrets about that. Didn't stop for water or anything. So proud of myself!!
went through school from monday to friday which went by in a blink of an eye.
School weeks are so short they seem to fly by and soon you know its friday again
Caleb says "it feels so fast cause you are enjoying yourself"
touche baby.
ppl from my PE class are huge fun to be around with cause they are so on and spontaneous, so my kinda people
PESS degree yr 1 damn terror!
our tagline
Probabaly the sucky part about this week was that i didnt get to go home at all due to netbal carnival that PESS is organising over the weekends
Secondary school girls streaming into NIE for the carnival brings back old memories of secondary school.
In fact, i even saw some familiar faces in the oraganised mess
The netballers from Damai sec, Mr cho, the netball coach Mr Bok who is still as loud as ever but pudgier.
Spent the whole days managing court 1 of the MPH, controlling the crowd, and playing with the walkie talkie.
Walkie-takie-ing is so fun especially when you're communicating with so many crappy ppl from PE. I was the girl with the kiddy voice! DO I HAVE A KIDDY VOICE??
i think i sound rather sexy in fact
haha
on a more serious note, the netball carnival gave me an insight into the netball world.
Having many friends doing and loving the sport, it was an eye opener to be managing and watching such a grand event.
However, im really surprised at how some of the coaches especially from the better teams are shouting at the girls from the sideline.
They shout when they make a mistake, they shout when they did well, they shout at everything.
and they shout really loud im telling you
In fact, they were giving them instructions, throughout the whole game.
I mean, if i were a coach, i would expect my students to be able to play their own game when it was the time for them to do so.
Even of they do not do the right thing all the time, it would still be a learning experience aint it?
But what puzzles is how this shouting phenomena seems to be uniform for alot of top notch teams.
As a PE teacher, is that what i want my future students to do?
To be task carrying my instructions on race/match day?
to be mere robots?
omg, too much introduction to PE
another week starts tmr!
man.
ive got essays that are reaching deadlines.
rugby Inter class on tuesday
Im gonna be busy.
ciao
what i've been up to:
1)Evolution Garden, Botanical gardens for bio practical
dont you just feel so glad when you feel so important and loved by your friends and family members?
Best friends, though we may not get the chance to meet one another or even speak, we are somehow alwasy at the back of each other's mind? I am no social butterfly and hence i have no 598 friends on my facebook or friendster to baost about.
But to me, what's most important is that the couple and few that you really love will always be there. Don't matter the location(East or West), don't matter the country(Canada or Singapore or Sweden), don't matter the occupaation(student, factory worker or NS man).
I woke up with a toasty feeling in my heart feeling so excited for my friend who received a great piece of news and knowing i am one of the first few to know about it. The feeling is just awesome. right?
the day was such a bitch to me. got up an hr before class to prepare to go to sch. i went about my usual routines, bathe, pack my bag and off i proceeded on to my walk to school. when i was at the entrance of school, it was about 1120 which leaves me a 10mins buffer to stroll to the lecture theatre. The problem was that i still wasnt familiar with the school surroundings and where my classes were. I wanted to take out my file to check my timetable and all only to realise i didnt pack my file into the bag. So i was caughth in between going back hall to grab my file or to just proceed on with lecture. I chose the latter. continued with my journey to the theatre still, not knowing where the lecture was. I called my friend.
Jacq: Eh Eunice, where's the bio lect at arh? Eunice: Huh? Jacq: Bio lect. Lt what? I forgot to bring my file Eunice: No lecture today cause of union day! Jacq: Huh? No lecture? Den i come all the way to school for what?
Never mind. Since im in school, i decided to check it out. Maybe she's wrong Saw some random PE student.
Jacq: Excuse me, may i know if there is no lesson now? PE: You mean now? Jacq: Ya, do you know if there is lesson now? PE: Oh! Sometimes, there is lesson now, sometimes there is no lesson. It depends on your timetable Jacq: *thinks to myself* duh??
den i saw my bunch of classmates at the far end who just ended math class cause they had it early in the morning confirmed that there are no lessons today from 9am to 4pm due to union day joined them for lunch and on the way i spotted the PE seniors selling PE orientation shirts which i wanna get cause im so lacking of shirts confirmed the piece that i was getting
Jacq: ok, i want size S. You gimme a min k, i go draw money Senior: No problem open my bag Jacq: Oh bitch! Senior: what? Jacq: I forgot to bring my wallet.
I was barely in school for an hour and its Strike 3 already.
Attended my Principles of Games class at night and went to IMM for dinner with PE ppl. Came back and went for shower. Brushed my teeth but i cant find my retainers!!! Searched high and low for it only to find it on the toilete floor disgustingly wrapped in some damped toilet paper with a little hairline crack. Bitch la. I took out my retainers while i was bathing in the shower cubicle, so i dunno how it landed on the floor near the sinks. WITH A CRACK
All i can say is today is SUAY!
P.s: i just found out 5 mins ago that i lost my water bottle also!
flicking through the TV channels always gives me some amazing surprises this time, it led me to the discovery of this amazing show which was aired previously on starhub channel 55 or 255 sometime last year.
But is back for encore!! Amazing Surgeon Bong Dal Hee
Yes! A korean drama. One out of the 2 that i caught other than Jewel In the Palace so i assure you it is damn good.
This Medical drama series tells the story of an aspiring doctor who suffers from a critical heart problem since young but foregoes the danger just to fulfill her passion to safe lives. She begins her residency programme by lying to her mum that she is going overseas to pursue another degree. At the hospital drama builds up where she faces cases like getting infected by an Aids patient' blood, being attacked by a prison inmate and ofcourse romance as well.
So whats so special you say? This is not the typical local medical drama where operation procedures are cleverly blocked by the actors. Expect face on operation scenes, medical terms and lots of blood.
Do you know the tube where they stick it up someone's uretha when they can go to the toilet is called a foley? Super interesting show. Pls go catch it. Cause i think this is the 2nd encore already.
anyway, do u fancy the girl on the extreme right looks like Olive, Poppeye's wife? im just saying man
Oh and if you watch it in the original language that is korean, you will find alot of korean words have similar or exactly the same phonetic sound as chinese Like heart operation in korean from what i heard is "shim~ zang shou shu~" kinda funny when you hear it.
i chanced upon this mail which kinda hit me right in the face. im still trying to force myself to be a very gracious person because i feel like i am "above average" on the graciousness scale but apparently not enough for me to do this- yet.
Two friends were walking throug the desert During some point of the journey, they had an arguement and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand "today, my best friend slapped me in the face"
They kept on walking until they found an oasis where they decided to take a bath in The one who got slapped got stucked in a mire and started drwoning, but they friend saved him After he recovered, he wrote on a stone "Today, my best friend saved my life"
The same friend then asked "After i hurt you, you worte in the sand and now you write on a stone. Why is that so?"
The friend replied "when someone hurt you, you should write it in sand where the winds of forgiveness can erase it away, but when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it on stone where no wind can ever erase it"
forgiveness is such an easy thing to do, but it hurts so much when your you feel so taken for granted at times i am still giving this whole situation a through thought Please dont be alarmed by this randome post. ....
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On a lighter note, i am finally done with all the documentation and processing for school yesterday and as a mini celebration, my mum took me out for shopping and i came back with many gifts 1) longchamp paris large long strap tote 2) large Calvin Klein Jeans bag in yellow that i have been eyeing since god knows when
yay! 2 new bags for the new school term. I cannot be a happier person. for now, all i have to do is to wait for camp to come and go asap im so not a camping, cheering, og loyal kinda person and im kinda dreading this camp Not to mention how serious and stren the female PE teacher at the PE school camp regstration booth looked. But at least the guys were friendly. We all know where our concerns lie huh? But if the camps are anything like how yan yan and pei shi described them then it should be no problemo
oh! And Yan Yan texted me telling me we got into hall 8! i was kinda disappointed we didnt get an aircon hall 3 or 16 i wonder how am i suppose to live without airconditioning but from looks of picture, it looks not too shabby, so yeah. in fact, kinda resort-like i must say. okay. all the updates ends here. will try to include some pictures of my new purchases next time. oh. and im an official Nike plus human race runner on the 31st august. can't wait!! the whole world is signing up for this marathon. i'll be gg with wee wee and the besties. Now we wouldnt wanna be left out do we? girls?? wanna join? Go sign up now!
oh! and Dark knight kicked some major Zohan, Hancock ass. Its in a whole different league to be compared Way good. and i caught it on the primier day. I have to say Heath Ledger's death is certaintly a loss to the movie world because he is a VERY good actor. on the same standing as leonardo de caprio on my scale now. and i think leo is a damn good actor by the way. Plus, the movie is so gonna be worth your money cause its almost 3 hrs long must watch!
p.s: wee wee gimme a little more time. a bit more. i cant wait! p.p.s: fish therapy cum makan? girls? p.p.s: besties on for zoo?
been very busy last week and this week cause.......... its the start of National Schools Canoeing Champs again!!! but for the first time in 7 years, i do not have to take part in it arousing an indescribable feeling in my stomach(maybe its just my shit that has not seen the light in almost a week. i need more fibre)
been going down to help out during trainings last week and for the whole of this week i will be helping out at the competition ground so, sorry for the lack of news and my sudden disappearence and if u ask me out and i say i cant
oh, and i FINALLY received my uni package ytd so there will also be alot of documents processing to be done and not to mention, school is starting in another 2 weeks???
i cant believe despite how technology has flourished, uni documents still perpetually rely on snail mail to be sent to its various avenues. not to mention the time and resources like paper and manpower wasted to delivery that stack of paper? this is so time consuming and did i mention i do not have enough of that??
a surprise came in the mail today
When he is so psyched up and excited about scoring a point, you know something is definitely wrong.
Personally, i prefer the large square ones cause its a bigge serving and so you get more kick out of eating that huge one instead of the cute small and round ones
i comfort myself by saying that all theses calories will be lost when i get back to the damn hall on wednesday
i took a Q tip and stick it inside one of the vents to clean it and out comes
this piece of dust bunnie
black framed spectacles
the face cannot usually be seen except for some parts
may many 23s come your way 
a chipped tooth!
and yes,
Survivor is back for another season and you dunno how excited i am right now 
GO ROGER GO!
PESS degree yr 1 damn terror!
3)Daniel's sax performance at eM bar
in fact, kinda resort-like i must say.
